Morgenstimmung
Chapter: Behind the Scenes
I don’t know what’s going on upstairs anymore but I’m starting to hear some morning music with a lifting fog. I think it’s time to draw again?
Behind the Scenes
79 comics.
Whelp I missed the first one after trying to restart, I didn’t think it would be so hard to get going again. Turns out missing 3 months really hampers motivation.
My wife broke her arm in October which forced double parenting duty on me. So by the time work, cooking, the kids in bed, and anything my second job needed that day was complete, it be 11 PM most nights. One reliable solid hour a day is all I’ve had available for the most part, and that isn’t enough for well…, anything. Compounding that is the realization that working from home absolutely sucks the longer it goes on, once I’ve punched out for the day I have no desire to sit in the same chair staring at the same screen, again, knowing the next day would be the same.
I do have an exciting project I’m working out for the next few weeks that had me excited to draw again finally. Hopefully I don’t miss any more sundays.
Getting restarted
Chapter: Behind the Scenes
It’s been a rough few months and I’ll explain more later, but I’ve reached the point that I have time and the urge to get started with this again. Restarting is also terrifying so I’m limiting it to Sundays only. Here’s to baby steps and new starts.
Last week I had a large project start on Tuesday and the original deadline was Friday morning. It was stressful but it got done. That deadline turned out to be incorrect and ended up being saturday evening. By the time I was done working it was practically time to put Dilly to bed, and as I watched her sleep I couldn’t help wonder what was the point? It definitely not help the situation knowing I had another project that needed done on Sunday,…and Monday,….and. I might have a weekend off in october. Hallowistmakuh is coming up, I’m taking that day off for sure, cute plans this year.
Is this just it now?
Chapter: Behind the Scenes, rant
Rush jobs are the worst. I have no motivation to draw when I get off work at 9:30. At that point I’ve missed the kids all day and the wife is going to bed shortly, the only thing that can ever come out of this situation is a rushed comic I don’t care about, another “I’m not working comic”, or a depressing one. Doing the full painted backgrounds feels fulfilling but a “fast” full comic takes 2 hours at least assuming nothing comes up (how often does that ever happen), and the throw away ones don’t give me any real practice. I need to seriously consider shifting to 3 days a week or find a new workflow.
Extra work but it’s ok?
Chapter: Behind the Scenes
So I have to work overtime today so I don’t have time to draw full on comic, but I should be able to draw tomorrow. I can’t really talk about it yet and I’m annoyed this project is so rushed, but it’s a cool enough project I don’t mind. It is a weird feeling to be making something and have all the pieces fall into place perfectly. It causes weird thoughts like “Wait,……do I actually know what I’m doing now?”
Vacation
Chapter: Behind the Scenes
I have some rush jobs that normally wouldn’t be an issue as they render in the background, problem is that program keeps hanging after the newest update. So that means I’m stuck rendering with the main program in the foreground incapacitating my workstation. Since I wouldn’t be able to get started until after midnight, tonight’s art is just a loss.
9/3 edit. I’m taking a holiday off for once. So from today through labor day I’m not posting anything. Have a safe holiday.
9/8 edit. Having the weekend off was more of a relief than anticipated, so I’m extending my break this whole week. I can play with Dilly and clear out the to-do list in peace this way.
Thanks MayoKing
Chapter: Behind the Scenes
Hey MayoKing you’re a jerk. Making me, “feel” and “think” things. it’s gross and I don’t like it.
… and yet,
I do need to figure out why I’m pushing myself to work on these 5 days a week. What is my goal for this? Boardgame stories? I mean I do love boardgames, or is it diary for Dilly to remember me through? Kinda dark but could be funny. Maybe it’s just art practice?, but then again practice for what? I need to thinkerize on this a bit.
So Close
Chapter: Behind the Scenes
Oh man baby steps but progress. This series and the shining project finally have both made progress. I forgot how relaxing it is not working eight in the morning until 10 in the evening is. There is so much more time for activities.
I hate this
Chapter: Behind the Scenes
I’m sorry to whoever is reading these, I really do have actual comic ideas. I hate needing to do these non comics because I overbooked work again. I need to start turning down jobs, but how can you right now?
